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another sunk boat

Miztikiz:

prancefrly: there

prancefrly: now i can see ur face

prancefrly: send me the other msgs

Miztikiz: i was just saying i like my new keyboard

Miztikiz: and that i'm sorry i didn't call you today

prancefrly: yeah, you were too bz buying your keyboard... bt i aint saying nottin'

Miztikiz:

prancefrly: why didn't you call me earlier..i even put it on my away msg asking you to call me

Miztikiz: i didn't pay attention to it...i don't know if i even looked at it

prancefrly:

Miztikiz:

prancefrly:

prancefrly: i was hoping you would call me, cuz i wanted you to come and spend the night over

Miztikiz: i couldn't have done that anyway...i have work tomorrow morning, and i wouldn't have gone if i came over lol

prancefrly: oh and taht's why you're fucking up at fucking 2 am talking on fucking line

prancefrly: fuck it sean!

prancefrly: excuses

Miztikiz: don't pull the drama.

prancefrly: its not drama sean...and you know it

prancefrly: dont give me that shit

Miztikiz: what is it then?

Miztikiz: honestly....

prancefrly: you could have easily have gone to work from here...

Miztikiz: you know i'm an insomniac, but if i was at your house, i wouldn't get up...and if i did, i wouldn't want to go to work.

prancefrly: ....

prancefrly: you know what sean...am starting to think that we should just be buddies. this whole ordeal of us trying to see eachother is not working, atleast from my side of the fence. As much time as i may want to spend with you there is always something there that its not making it work, mostly scheduling, if not all. i dont see a point in trying to see someone when the last time i saw them was almost a month ago, if i wanted a long distant relationship i would have started to date someone in another state. sadly enough, i believe , correct me if am wrong, but that you're feeling and thinking soething around that area.

prancefrly: is not that i dont like you or anything of that matter..cuz i was starting to find you close to me, you have been so far the closest to the kind of man i 'd like to be with in a relationship..but that's exactly what i wanted. a relationship...not what it is

Miztikiz: ...

prancefrly: well i see you're not answering

Miztikiz: what do you want me to say?

prancefrly: say something...isnt' there anything from your part?

Miztikiz: i don't know.

prancefrly: ]i see

prancefrly: well then...i guess its settled...i'd love to be your friend...if you'd still want to..cuz i'd like to develop something there, and maybe later on somthing if there was to be something...if its ok with you?

Miztikiz: if that's the way you feel then, what choice do i have?

prancefrly: thank you for somewhat understanding, though i would've liked to have had your exact thoughts

Miztikiz: my exact thoughts? That my fucking job has ruined the potential for a good relationship YET AGAIN

prancefrly: honestly i dont think it was your job...

prancefrly: am sorry

Miztikiz: what is it then?

prancefrly: i really wanted all of this to work out..i head great hopes..

Miztikiz: well at least you got what you wanted...a valentines date

prancefrly: look there were times were i had offered to just go visit you even for a lil while, even though it was at night...i dind't care...but you did...and that bothered me..

prancefrly: dont make it seem as that's all i wanted...and u know that wasn't all

prancefrly: if you had really wanted to spend time with me, even for a lil while you would've said yes..common over...but you didnt. and is not like i was asking to go over at freaking 4am ...it was still a somewhat reasonable time

Miztikiz: i know

prancefrly: to me that made me feel like crap...specially cuz even the last guy i was seen spent time with me when he was tired as hell after working two jobs in one day...i would go over even for a lil while...because he knew i wanted to see him and i was asking to ...i know i should have probably metnioned this...and i blame myself comptely for it...but its also slice of your pie

prancefrly: it was wrong of me to bring up that guy up, and am sorry...

Miztikiz: *shrug*

Miztikiz: it doesn't matter

prancefrly: thank you for making me feel so ...::sigh::

prancefrly: delightful

Miztikiz: what do you want me to say?

prancefrly: well , sadly i must go ahead and logg off right now. i have a very important day tomorrow and i must wake up at the brake of dawn......i dont know..i guess i just hougth you'd have something to say about it

Miztikiz: i don't know what to say!

2:14 am - Sunday, Mar. 07, 2004

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