coradoe83's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- fur so by request i've given the diligent thought and decided to write an entry. Fur claud (and no i did not spell that wrong, in germany for is spelled fur, who would've thoughd well at least not I). well what can i write so that it will please my unpleasurable audience. should i do a recap of events or shall i empty my mind of other matters? well because there are things that i at the moment wish to not disclose with any one, i will do a recap of events with some thoughts. what a bullshit talked iam...fuck! well friday i got my hair redy with a costly purchase of some oils and a thirty minute wait for a ride that will be kept unmentionable. later that night i bid farewell to arcadia. she has finally left the 714 area for good. i hope she finds a life that is worth not coming back. life here is mundane and incomplete. it depletes you to a mere worker of a land that will suck you into the dry landscapes of ridicule. change is just soooo ....well dreamy! later that night i was summoned to attend the night mare of the club named Ozz. a very close friend of mine Maria joined me. needless to say it was a freaking good. the best time i've had in a very very long time. i had so much to drink, and needless to say my wallet is good proof of that. i met up april there with some of her boygals. jeremy included, a gogoboy that just started there. i had met him before and well had a minute crush on him. he's just such a darlin, and cute but mostly nice. thought that by the end of the night i felt this instinctual feeling that he uses certain individuals to his advantage. anyway, we all made it back home sound and safe. that night i had the most unusual dreams. i think i had a girlfriend in one or was atleast flirting with someone. then in another i had sex with brent. odd dreams if so i say myself. saturday i was supposed to go to the mission viejo mall for a cd signing by maria mena, but didn't. stayed home all day as a matter of fact. it was nice. sunda i did the same. nothing out of the ordinary an dam sad to say that my peak to attend the gym declined rapidly and this weekend went by and i didn't work out at all, besides the dancing i did on friday night. fuck it am trying to write this entry and as claud is talking to me my thoughts are fading away. well i just recently had a conversation with someone i hadnt spoken to in quite a while. it was nice to hear from that person. a topic i thought about for months was brought up and it really put me at a place of unease and thought provoking. i hadn't thought about it for quite some time, and had thought that maybe i was done with the subject at hand. but the conversation made me think that maybe the reason why i thought so much about it was because there was supposed to be something happen. today i spent some good moments thinking about what could happen and if it would, it felt nice. it seemed nice in my head. i dont know what i will say to that person. i just dont know...but i know that what was it was nice . 1:59 am - Monday, Aug. 16, 2004 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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